I suffer from MS (multiple sclerosis). MS is a disease that can affect the brain, spinal cord, and nerves in your body. MS causes problems with balance, muscle control, and really just basic body functions.
Each person with MS is affected differently. Not one person is the same.
It took me years after being diagnosed with MS to realize that each day of my life would be different from here on out. There are days that I do not experience any MS related symptoms and there are days that I experience multiple symptoms at a time.
My symptoms are (this is what I call my MS reality):
- Extreme emotions sometimes (laughter, anger, crying)
- Severe pain
- Numbness in some body parts
- Choke on my own spit
- Stagger when I walk ( I call this the drunk walk, but I’m not drunk)
- Vision problems
Just to name a few…
Just to take a trip down memory lane… when I was first diagnosed with MS back in 2012. I literally thought I was dying. I am pretty sure my husband had had enough of my months long tantrum of trying to give up on life. I did not show this to the outside world, but my inside world (my home) it was different. I was moody, mad, you know the why me mentality and always making excuses. This was literally tearing my family apart.
Going to the doctor every 3 months for MRI’s of my brain, trying to figure the best medications to take, being pricked and poked. I was OVER IT.
One day my husband said, ” Look babe, you got to be stronger than your excuses. You have to be. If you aren’t strong I struggle to be strong.”
That hurt!!! But it opened my eyes.
This made me realize there are things that I will no longer live without. Which are:
- A support system
- A trusting doctor
- A positive treatment plan that meets MY needs
- Patience (I struggle with this sometimes)
- A fighters mentality.. and not a knock you out, but a never give up attitude
- The ability to accept help (this one is still tough, but I’m learning)
I’ve realized that MS is not a death sentence, but I’ve chosen to make this lifestyle easier for me. Easier by the foods I eat , exercising, picking the treatment plan(s) that are best for me and my lifestyle and of course, less stress.
Until next time..